Woahhh..That’s what’s happening

Georgia has been so refreshing for me. Truly it has! I know the people in my cga and beauty for ashes circle want the best for me. They listen, encourage me and do all the things that make one feel cared for. But since being here I couldn’t help feeling kinda off, like I’m not fully present all the time.Like I’m missing pieces of myself in a way.Well it hit me this week in one of my classes on our discussion of grief.
Woahhh..I’m totally still grieving my last season. I finished the world race at the end of July and bounced around a few places visiting in August then moved here in September! It seems kind of obvious but really , I had to come to terms that I’m missing and mourning what is finished. It was an incredible,beautifully stretching and growing season that offered hope,healing and so so much more and it’s really over. Of coarse I know it’s over but internally still needing to process this reality a couple times.
So this week I stared that reality in the face and realized that’s totally ok! This is so healthy and if I’m not grieving this I’d probably question that. There was so much expectation I put on myself finishing the race I thought would happen, but that actually didn’t and guess what that kinda sucks. I planned to move in with two very close friends, and just do life .Then all my plans changed and God made it clear that I needed to move to Georgia.I’m really grieving those things also. Not the moving to Georgia thing,that’s been awesome! But yea,it’s a real life thing to feel that loss of something even if your not sure what it is!
So I’m not sharing all this gushy stuff to be emotional..but to shed light that we may experience the grieving process more than we realize! That’s totally normal and needed ,to usher in what’s next for you or where you currently are. If you don’t fully heal from a loss it could damage your healthiness in your next place! Been there for sure!So I’m learning anyway! So some take always from my class I want to share are these 5 tools to grieving in a ..healthy kinda way taken from Job and his grief – this is paraphrased. 1. Pay attention- be real with where you are and how your feeling. Yep, even if it’s messy and you don’t like it, realize it’s there.
2. Wait in that in between-when we choose to ignore what’s happening we can take control over our situation instead of waiting on God.
3.Embrace limits- we all have things we can’t control,realizing what those are and embracing instead of warring them will benefit you!
4.Humility- yep-allow yourself to decrease so the father can increase in you.
5.Let the old birth the new-don’t sit in this place.recognize and walk forward.suffering and death bring restoration and transformation.
So that went kinda deep but I wanted to make this known because I honestly don’t think it’s discussed enough in the church .Emotions can be seen as taboo or one can feel as a victim but truly it’s healthy and biblical to grieve so if ya need it allow yourself that!
On a lighter note- I’d love to hear your thoughts on this or anything similar! Perhaps inspire me for another blog?!